Kurt Cobain remembered on 30th anniversary of death by daughter Frances Bean
On the 30th anniversary of Kurt Cobain's death, his daughter Frances Bean Cobain has paid a moving tribute to the late rock star.
Cobain, who died April 5, 1994, was remembered by his only child with Courtney Love in an Instagram post that discussed grief, loss and her ache to have known the Nirvana frontman, who died when she was just 1 year old.
"I wish I could've known my Dad," she said. "I wish I knew the cadence of his voice, how he liked his coffee or the way it felt to be tucked in after a bedtime story. I always wondered if he would've caught tadpoles with me during the muggy Washington summers, or if he smelled of Camel Lights & strawberry nesquik (his favorites, I've been told)."
In a carousel, Frances Bean Cobain included an image of her father's hands, his childhood photos and two images of her as a child, "the last time we were together," she said in the caption.
She wrote that her grandmother, Wendy Cobain, would hold her hands and remark how much they were like her son's.
The 31-year-old continued: "In the last 30 years my ideas around loss have been in a continuous state of metamorphosing. The biggest lesson learned through grieving for almost as long as I’ve been conscious, is that it serves a purpose. The duality of life & death, pain & joy, yin & yang, need to exist along side each other or none of this would have any meaning."
The artist and model said the "impermanent nature" of being human leads us to lead more "authentic lives."
"As It turns out, there is no greater motivation for leaning into loving awareness than knowing everything ends," she said. "(My father) gifted me a lesson in death that can only come through the LIVED experience of losing someone. It's the gift of knowing for certain, when we love ourselves and those around us with compassion, with openness, with grace, the more meaningful our time here inherently becomes."
Frances Bean Cobain has been open about her grief, guilt and struggle with being the child of celebrities. She told RuPaul in a 2019 interview that she felt guilty due to her inheritance from Kurt Cobain's estate.
"It's almost like this big, giant loan that I’ll never get rid of," she said. "I have an almost foreign relationship to it or guilt because it feels like money from somebody that I've never met, let alone haven't earned myself."
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She later added that being in the spotlight as the child of a celebrity was made easier by her childhood friend Billie Lourd, daughter of late actress Carrie Fisher, and her connection with Sean Lennon, the son of Yoko Ono and John Lennon.